I'm most of the way through my first week and I have had a couple of set backs: I have been struggling in school this semester and made sure to study my rear-end off (I wish literally), and my dinners a few nights this week weren't exactly perfect. Maybe far from it.
I have come to realize that stress does trigger my eating. I received my dad's memorial video this week and while I watched it I wanted to get up and eat something like it was going to make me feel better. I didn't do it, but I seriously contemplated it. Then while I was studying I really did give in. I didn't sleep the entire night before the test and at about six in the morning, when I realized I wasn't going to sleep, I studied more. I passed the test and napped for a little bit after class, but changing my eating habits was not on my mind. And last night a friend of mine had a memorium for her brother that I attended and it consisted of a cookout...
Needless to say it's been hard, but my Aunt Charlene made me think of a good point: I can't be perfect all the time. Really, it's impossible and when I'm trying to change habits it will take time. I have had a revelation in the last couple of days and it started when I drove by Romeo's (which I do every day because it is literally two blocks from my house) and subsequently wanted it: I CANNOT have the junk I want every day or whenever I want it. Obviously my body does not tolerate it. So, in light of this I have had to fight myself to not go out to eat or grab whatever I want. Like Aunt Charlene said, it will get easier.
Thanks to all of those that are supporting me! Mike has been doing an awesome job, too! Keep the comments coming; it's nice to know I'm not talking to myself! ;)
2 comments:
Hey Keely, It's nice to know that we're not alone. Since I quit drinking, I've been eating like crazy. It's almost like I'm trying to replace the alcohol with food. I am truly a compulsive person - all or nothing type. So when I go on a diet, I do everything suddenly, setting myself up for failure every time. I think even if you do have small setbacks it's going to be OK. I have been told by all my healthy friends to make small, gradual changes instead of trying to do it all at once. Easier said than done, but it sure does make sense! Aunt Charlene is right. Don't be so hard on yourself!
Thank you! I am also the all or nothing type, but I do feel like this time is different because I am trying to make the smaller changes. And it is hard! :P How are you, btw?
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